HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
I just wanted to say Happy Thanksgiving to everyone. I hope you all had a chance to spend some good quality time with family and just relax. I’m generally not into the cliche, once a year, forced lame holiday emotions. However, I honestly hope that you were able to really look at everything you have, regardless of whatever may be going on in your life, and just be thankful for the countless blessings you have in your life. I don’t necessarily mean blessings in the religious sense, but more so just general good fortune, but I digress. I know that whoever is reading this has plenty of good fortune to reflect on because, probably due to some good fortune of my own, I can’t say I really know anyone who doesn’t have a whole list of things to be truly thankful for.
So as I’m laying here typing this right now, I’ve got confusing emotions in my head right now, as is often the case. I had one of the best days I’ve had in a long time. I spent a lot of time with my family, which I haven’t really done in awhile. I ate WAY too much incredibly delicious food, watched football, and did absolutely nothing. Most importantly, I didn’t even think about studying anything. It was a great day, and really what I thought I needed. Generally speaking, I’ve been in a great mood the last few days after passing another SOA exam and getting my gauntlet of tests out of the way. I enjoyed my day and am damn excited about the next couple of days. On top of that I really did try to reflect a little and consider all of the things I have to be thankful for (which I really don’t do often enough.) I came up with quite the long list, by the way. So now I’m laying here, after a really great day, really content with everything, and happy and hopeful for my future. Yet, on top of that, I’ve still got this strange general feeling of sadness buried somewhere in the back. It’s almost like something’s missing, but that’s not quite it. I don’t know what it is. It’s pretty frustrating though. Even after a great day in which I tried to really focus on those things that should make me happy, and even while actually feeling pretty happy with things, that feeling is still down there. Anyway, I don’t have a point. I’m whining. It’s sort of what I do now.
Regardless of all that crap, this day really was great. It was the sort of day I had been hoping for for the past couple months, and was really what I needed. I got to spend time with my family and really just relax. Also, while I think a person should always reflect on and be thankful for the special things in his life, and find the force fed concept of Thanksgiving a little unnecessary (along with the idea of just showing love on Valentines day or pretending to be religious just on Christmas,) it is kind of nice to have a little reminder. I realize the things we all intend to do kind of get shoved to the backburner in the stressful mess that is day to day life. With that in mind I would just like to once again remind those of you taking the time to read this to really, honestly think about everything that is important to you, all those reasons that you’re fortunate, and be thankful. It’s not about comparing yourself to those less fortunate, by saying things like ‘We could be losing our home this year,’ or ‘at least we’re not starving,’ but rather just really being grateful, and thankful for everything you’ve got. Whatever, this has gotten really lame. I’m done with my whole thing here. Finally, I just want to, again, wish everyone a truly happy thanksgiving, even if it is technically the day after now.
Good Night.
